Over the past year or so, I have found that my medication has, for the most part, kept me on an even keel. So much so, that I have been fooled into thinking that I am ok without them.
I went to see my doctor to discuss my lowering my dose, to which she was a little surprised. I don’t really like having to rely on medication, so the sooner I can come off them, the better for me.
She told me to start lowering my medication for two weeks to see how it went. I started to lower it a little for a few days, thinking that everything would be ok. However, this was far from the truth.
As it turned out, my anxiety came back with a vengeance. I know that there are side effects to coming off such medicines, but I wasn’t prepared for the backlash. I had to put my dose back to normal so that I could feel better again
To say that it knocked me for six would be an understatement. It made me realise just how dependent I am on these tablets, which makes me a little unhappy.
I guess I just wanted things to be back to normal, however, I think my normal isn’t what I was hoping it would be.