I kind of knew it as soon as I said it really, when I mentioned in one of my last blog posts: A Year of Reflection and Contemplation that my anxiety had been pretty good. It was just a few days after that when my anxiety started to flare up again. Was it just a coincidence? Was I just thinking myself into it? Well, whatever the reason, it has been quite challenging. In fact it got so bad that for a couple of days, I really didn’t want to leave the house.
I don’t think it was helped by the fact that I also lost one of my counter measures. Again this was probably psychological, but then I guess everything is when it comes to anxiety. It is one of those times when people really cannot see what’s happening on the inside, even when I forced myself to go out, I felt like everyone was watching me, even though I know they weren’t.
In some ways it feels worse when I haven’t had it for a while, I guess my mind forgets slightly what its like. Thankfully, I am starting to get back on track now, but this anxiety thing is not fun.